Afraid

Is this what I am afraid of?
The darkness inside,
The meaning I find,
Feelings inside my heart,
Dark, cruel, torn apart,

I am afraid,
Of being whole,
Of living alone,
The darkness feels too close,
Push on the walls in my mind,

Is this what I am afraid of?
I cannot face my fears,
They tear me apart,
See the expression on my face,
Pure horror in these tears,

I am afraid,
Of losing sight to the darkness,
Letting the darkness in,
Means giving up my soul,
This is what I'm afraid of.